It's been 10 years since my dad passed away and I miss him every day. Some days are harder than others, but lately, I've been missing him more. Not sure why I just have. It's so hard to experience life without my dad around to share in the good times and hard times. My dad was a man of few words at times but you always knew how he felt and where he stood on issues and topics being discussed. You just knew. At least I did ;) I miss that.
Father's Day hasn't always been this hard. The first few years after he passed away we celebrated dad, had a drink, enjoyed the memories, etc. Then, Erik and I had Adam and we celebrated Erik's fatherhood. Of course, we always celebrated Erik's dad and extended family and friends dads too. So I thought this year would be the same. We did celebrate Erik and his dad, who happened to be at our house for the weekend. Nothing crazy, just laid back and very nice. The kids had made Erik presents and we got him a new puzzle that we started on. At the end of the day, Erik said how nice it was and just what he wanted. I mentioned how sadden I felt this year, more than in the past and he understood.
Why do I feel the need to share this? I guess I really don't. It's more for me. To help me reflect and to help with the healing that is still happening 10 years later.
Miss you dad
