Well, I just dropped the kids off at their respective summer places and after getting some quick work at school done that I didn't get to on check out day, I am home alone! I don't really know what to do with myself :) Sure, I find myself home alone here and there but it's usually only for a quick hour or I'll be inside when everyone else is out...but that's not really home alone. Now I have the whole day alone!!!! The possibilities are unless.
One thing I am doing is listening to Alexa with the volume up and MY music playing. That never happens!!!! I am also planning to check a few things off the "summer to-do" list but I am also going to scrapbook, read and relax. Soooooo, off to it!
7.02.2019
6.18.2019
Father's Day Blues
Father's Day was especially hard for me this year. It started out fine...wake up, visit with the inlaws, give Erik his Father's Day gifts and then I checked FaceBook. It was blown away with wonderful testaments about Father's....and it made me incredibly sad. I couldn't look at anymore and have basically stayed off of FaceBook for the past few days. Sure I have been on here and there but only to look things up or check in on close friends, otherwise, I have been absent. I just couldn't read about everyone's dads. Not this year.
It's been 10 years since my dad passed away and I miss him every day. Some days are harder than others, but lately, I've been missing him more. Not sure why I just have. It's so hard to experience life without my dad around to share in the good times and hard times. My dad was a man of few words at times but you always knew how he felt and where he stood on issues and topics being discussed. You just knew. At least I did ;) I miss that.
Father's Day hasn't always been this hard. The first few years after he passed away we celebrated dad, had a drink, enjoyed the memories, etc. Then, Erik and I had Adam and we celebrated Erik's fatherhood. Of course, we always celebrated Erik's dad and extended family and friends dads too. So I thought this year would be the same. We did celebrate Erik and his dad, who happened to be at our house for the weekend. Nothing crazy, just laid back and very nice. The kids had made Erik presents and we got him a new puzzle that we started on. At the end of the day, Erik said how nice it was and just what he wanted. I mentioned how sadden I felt this year, more than in the past and he understood.
Why do I feel the need to share this? I guess I really don't. It's more for me. To help me reflect and to help with the healing that is still happening 10 years later.
Miss you dad
It's been 10 years since my dad passed away and I miss him every day. Some days are harder than others, but lately, I've been missing him more. Not sure why I just have. It's so hard to experience life without my dad around to share in the good times and hard times. My dad was a man of few words at times but you always knew how he felt and where he stood on issues and topics being discussed. You just knew. At least I did ;) I miss that.
Father's Day hasn't always been this hard. The first few years after he passed away we celebrated dad, had a drink, enjoyed the memories, etc. Then, Erik and I had Adam and we celebrated Erik's fatherhood. Of course, we always celebrated Erik's dad and extended family and friends dads too. So I thought this year would be the same. We did celebrate Erik and his dad, who happened to be at our house for the weekend. Nothing crazy, just laid back and very nice. The kids had made Erik presents and we got him a new puzzle that we started on. At the end of the day, Erik said how nice it was and just what he wanted. I mentioned how sadden I felt this year, more than in the past and he understood.
Why do I feel the need to share this? I guess I really don't. It's more for me. To help me reflect and to help with the healing that is still happening 10 years later.
Miss you dad
11.18.2018
Funny Life
Isn't life funny? The day to day goes by sometimes without a thought but yet those are the days that make up our lives? It's weird to look back on the past and reflect. As I read old blog posts of mine tonight I feel like I was so much smart 10 years ago. What happened? Kids? Stress? The craziness of life? I don't know but I feel a bit lost and overwhelmed.
A friend of mine lost her dad to cancer this week. I've been offering support and comfort and sharing a bit of my experience to help her through this difficult time. It has caused me some pain reliving things through her eyes but yet I am happy to help her and glad to have the experience to share. I never thought I would be able to say I was glad about that experience in my life but if it can help a friend, then it's good. Plus I believe our dads are together now in Heaven, so that's pretty cool.
I have been viewing a lot of past pictures as well. My family had a lot of fun back in the day and we still do. I only wish dad were here to share in it. Especially with our kiddos. Adam and Avery are amazing and I think they would love their Granpa Larry. I do feel he had a hand in bringing them to us and that gives me comfort and peace.
Well, I am going to continue on in this funny life and read a book (probably one of my favorite things to do right now) and maybe try to blog a bit more. I know you laugh, I say it every time, but one of these times I'll stick with it. I am working hard on doing more memory keeping. Not just scrapbooking but journaling, writing on a calendar, etc. Why? Well, I like the instant self-reflection and I think it's fun to look back on someday!
Cheers!
A friend of mine lost her dad to cancer this week. I've been offering support and comfort and sharing a bit of my experience to help her through this difficult time. It has caused me some pain reliving things through her eyes but yet I am happy to help her and glad to have the experience to share. I never thought I would be able to say I was glad about that experience in my life but if it can help a friend, then it's good. Plus I believe our dads are together now in Heaven, so that's pretty cool.
I have been viewing a lot of past pictures as well. My family had a lot of fun back in the day and we still do. I only wish dad were here to share in it. Especially with our kiddos. Adam and Avery are amazing and I think they would love their Granpa Larry. I do feel he had a hand in bringing them to us and that gives me comfort and peace.
Well, I am going to continue on in this funny life and read a book (probably one of my favorite things to do right now) and maybe try to blog a bit more. I know you laugh, I say it every time, but one of these times I'll stick with it. I am working hard on doing more memory keeping. Not just scrapbooking but journaling, writing on a calendar, etc. Why? Well, I like the instant self-reflection and I think it's fun to look back on someday!
Cheers!
3.05.2018
Spring Break 2018
Here we are....at Spring Break time and it's snowing like crazy in Hudson. Of course, this happens EVERY Spring Break. I remember my first Spring Break with Adam, he was about 8 months old and it was 70 degrees every day. We sat outside and had a blast in the sun. Now we are listening to the horrible wind and watching the snow fall like crazy! Lots of Battleship has been played and it's only day 1!
Thumbs up to Auntie and Daddy who had a snow day today....!
2.23.2018
Well, what the heck? Here it is 2018 and I am trying again to get things going! What is my deal....oh yeah, life!
Anyway, I find it appropriate that I am writing today....9 years after my dad passed away. I was posting some pictures of him on FB tonight and randomly opened my blog. Even though it's bookmarked at the top of my web browser I never open it. WHY? Maybe it's because of all the other social media sites (I have addressed this topic before). I guess I don't feel the need to blog. This is kind of like a journal but on the web....wait, didn't I read a book about a lady who told a secret on the web in her blog? Yes, I think it was Young Jane Young?
Super random thoughts tonight. Could be the 3 glasses of wine talking?
Will I keep up with the Blog this time? Hard to say...
Regardless, it's fun to read back on previous posts and reflect. Gosh, I have a good life. I know that and I am thankful but lately, things have been rough. Long sleepless nights, work is tough, winter sucks. So reading things here make me feel better!
Cheers and hope to see you again soon!
Anyway, I find it appropriate that I am writing today....9 years after my dad passed away. I was posting some pictures of him on FB tonight and randomly opened my blog. Even though it's bookmarked at the top of my web browser I never open it. WHY? Maybe it's because of all the other social media sites (I have addressed this topic before). I guess I don't feel the need to blog. This is kind of like a journal but on the web....wait, didn't I read a book about a lady who told a secret on the web in her blog? Yes, I think it was Young Jane Young?
Super random thoughts tonight. Could be the 3 glasses of wine talking?
Will I keep up with the Blog this time? Hard to say...
Regardless, it's fun to read back on previous posts and reflect. Gosh, I have a good life. I know that and I am thankful but lately, things have been rough. Long sleepless nights, work is tough, winter sucks. So reading things here make me feel better!
Cheers and hope to see you again soon!
4.12.2016
I should known better than to re-start up my blog during my maternity leave shortly before returning to work. How silly was that?!?!? Of course, I had very little time or energy left for writing or recording life's events. Scrapbooking as gone by the wayside too. I know I need to make time, and I do make time between Adam going to bed and Avery's final feeding (she takes an evening nap still). However, usually when I sit down at the desk to do something for me I first need to clear off the clutter of the week....notes from day care, projects that Adam made and I am unsure if it's something to keep or get ride of (when I get rid of his stuff he freaks out because I threw away a circle that was part of a train....WTF? How was I to know that....and really?!?!? is it that important?), or other random paperwork. If by chance I get thru that mess I am usually to tired to be creative, Avery is up and ready to eat, or it's time for me to go to bed! So....I am making time, I am just too damn tired. Maybe I should try to make the time for creativity right when I get home....only problem, child/husband interruptions!
At least tonight I find myself in front of the computer for a few minutes to catch up on the blog. I actually feel a bit behind tonight because I put of my bath for a bit to talk to a dear friend (I enjoyed our conversation emensly!) but I find that the time is earlier than I though. Bonus!!!! I even did a crap load of dishes, cleaned the living room and master bath toilet, played with the kids and put away a ton of clothes. Guess I am not that behind!
Going back to work after having a baby is weird. One day I was just chillin' at home with Avery, lazy and free. Just loving her up in my yoga pants. Feeding her whenever she wanted and we would nap whenever we could. The next day I am getting both of us ready (not in yoga pants), putting 6 bags into the car, dropping her off at day care and then throwing myself back into the kindergarten classroom. CRAZY!!!! Luckily, I had a wonderful sub and had set up some great structure and routine before my leave start over Thanksgiving break. It was pretty easy to get the kids back into my methods of teaching and classroom structure. Although the first day back was so funny, I told them that I felt like it was my first day of school! They loved helping me get settled back into the routine. Even though I wasn't with my baby all day I was surrounded by a loving class and staff that was happy to have me back.
After being back for a month it's gotten easier but it's still nuts. I NEVER sit still.....except to pump and even then I am checking email and worried that a custodian is going to bust in....even though I have the sign on the door! I am pumping 3 times a day and I feel like I never really have any down time. At least before I could hid away during prep or lunch with friends for a bit. Now lunch is rush, there is usually a bizillion meetings at prep and I just can't stop. Good news is I am getting in my 10,000 steps and then some!!!! Plus, then I get home and it's go go go! I do usually get in a bath, some reading and wine a few times a week and sleeping has been amazing. The last few days Avery had gotten up twice again to feed but before that it was only once.
All in all, life is AWESOME! I will take the craziness here and at work. I look at what that means for me....I have a job I love and a place I love to be 5 days a week. I also have an amazing family and friends who keep me busy and connected. Life is good! Here are a few recent pics to prove this :
At least tonight I find myself in front of the computer for a few minutes to catch up on the blog. I actually feel a bit behind tonight because I put of my bath for a bit to talk to a dear friend (I enjoyed our conversation emensly!) but I find that the time is earlier than I though. Bonus!!!! I even did a crap load of dishes, cleaned the living room and master bath toilet, played with the kids and put away a ton of clothes. Guess I am not that behind!
Going back to work after having a baby is weird. One day I was just chillin' at home with Avery, lazy and free. Just loving her up in my yoga pants. Feeding her whenever she wanted and we would nap whenever we could. The next day I am getting both of us ready (not in yoga pants), putting 6 bags into the car, dropping her off at day care and then throwing myself back into the kindergarten classroom. CRAZY!!!! Luckily, I had a wonderful sub and had set up some great structure and routine before my leave start over Thanksgiving break. It was pretty easy to get the kids back into my methods of teaching and classroom structure. Although the first day back was so funny, I told them that I felt like it was my first day of school! They loved helping me get settled back into the routine. Even though I wasn't with my baby all day I was surrounded by a loving class and staff that was happy to have me back.
After being back for a month it's gotten easier but it's still nuts. I NEVER sit still.....except to pump and even then I am checking email and worried that a custodian is going to bust in....even though I have the sign on the door! I am pumping 3 times a day and I feel like I never really have any down time. At least before I could hid away during prep or lunch with friends for a bit. Now lunch is rush, there is usually a bizillion meetings at prep and I just can't stop. Good news is I am getting in my 10,000 steps and then some!!!! Plus, then I get home and it's go go go! I do usually get in a bath, some reading and wine a few times a week and sleeping has been amazing. The last few days Avery had gotten up twice again to feed but before that it was only once.
All in all, life is AWESOME! I will take the craziness here and at work. I look at what that means for me....I have a job I love and a place I love to be 5 days a week. I also have an amazing family and friends who keep me busy and connected. Life is good! Here are a few recent pics to prove this :
2.08.2016
Crafting Weekend~ A Success!!!!
I spent this past weekend with 14 wonderful ladies from the elementary school where I work. We met in Altoona at the Stitch Supply Co. for an amazing weekend of crafting, laughing and good old bonding. I was a bit apprehensive of the weekend away because I had already been away from home in mid-January for a scrapbooking weekend. Things went really well that weekend and I was sure there was no way I would have another successful weekend away...but I did and so did the family! Erik is a pro with both kiddos! Maybe I should go away more often;) Even though I love the get-a-way with friends and having some time to myself, I missed Erik and the kids so much! Here are a few highlight pics from the weekend:
Time to get crafting!
The first round of ladies to arrive. We started to craft and drink! Great Friday night!!!!
Playing Card Against Humanity....great bonding!!!
Time to get crafting!
The first round of ladies to arrive. We started to craft and drink! Great Friday night!!!!
Playing Card Against Humanity....great bonding!!!
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