Well, I just dropped the kids off at their respective summer places and after getting some quick work at school done that I didn't get to on check out day, I am home alone! I don't really know what to do with myself :) Sure, I find myself home alone here and there but it's usually only for a quick hour or I'll be inside when everyone else is out...but that's not really home alone. Now I have the whole day alone!!!! The possibilities are unless.
One thing I am doing is listening to Alexa with the volume up and MY music playing. That never happens!!!! I am also planning to check a few things off the "summer to-do" list but I am also going to scrapbook, read and relax. Soooooo, off to it!
7.02.2019
6.18.2019
Father's Day Blues
Father's Day was especially hard for me this year. It started out fine...wake up, visit with the inlaws, give Erik his Father's Day gifts and then I checked FaceBook. It was blown away with wonderful testaments about Father's....and it made me incredibly sad. I couldn't look at anymore and have basically stayed off of FaceBook for the past few days. Sure I have been on here and there but only to look things up or check in on close friends, otherwise, I have been absent. I just couldn't read about everyone's dads. Not this year.
It's been 10 years since my dad passed away and I miss him every day. Some days are harder than others, but lately, I've been missing him more. Not sure why I just have. It's so hard to experience life without my dad around to share in the good times and hard times. My dad was a man of few words at times but you always knew how he felt and where he stood on issues and topics being discussed. You just knew. At least I did ;) I miss that.
Father's Day hasn't always been this hard. The first few years after he passed away we celebrated dad, had a drink, enjoyed the memories, etc. Then, Erik and I had Adam and we celebrated Erik's fatherhood. Of course, we always celebrated Erik's dad and extended family and friends dads too. So I thought this year would be the same. We did celebrate Erik and his dad, who happened to be at our house for the weekend. Nothing crazy, just laid back and very nice. The kids had made Erik presents and we got him a new puzzle that we started on. At the end of the day, Erik said how nice it was and just what he wanted. I mentioned how sadden I felt this year, more than in the past and he understood.
Why do I feel the need to share this? I guess I really don't. It's more for me. To help me reflect and to help with the healing that is still happening 10 years later.
Miss you dad
It's been 10 years since my dad passed away and I miss him every day. Some days are harder than others, but lately, I've been missing him more. Not sure why I just have. It's so hard to experience life without my dad around to share in the good times and hard times. My dad was a man of few words at times but you always knew how he felt and where he stood on issues and topics being discussed. You just knew. At least I did ;) I miss that.
Father's Day hasn't always been this hard. The first few years after he passed away we celebrated dad, had a drink, enjoyed the memories, etc. Then, Erik and I had Adam and we celebrated Erik's fatherhood. Of course, we always celebrated Erik's dad and extended family and friends dads too. So I thought this year would be the same. We did celebrate Erik and his dad, who happened to be at our house for the weekend. Nothing crazy, just laid back and very nice. The kids had made Erik presents and we got him a new puzzle that we started on. At the end of the day, Erik said how nice it was and just what he wanted. I mentioned how sadden I felt this year, more than in the past and he understood.
Why do I feel the need to share this? I guess I really don't. It's more for me. To help me reflect and to help with the healing that is still happening 10 years later.
Miss you dad
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